My Words to the World
9/28/08 Inspirations I welcome you into my life in order to be polite. I listen to your words because in this way I reflect God in the holiest light. I allow you to interfere with my peace because to do otherwise would be to put myself ahead of another of the children of God.
But while I lend my body & soul to you when I have to, my true life lies within my spirit, where I wish to be completely and continuously. While this is not possible here, it’s what I wish anyway. There is a part of me that you can’t have, a higher place in my spirit where you can’t go. A place where you are recognized for what you are and for what you aren’t; where thoughts are turned away in longing for the next kingdom, a higher kingdom than you can provide. A place where I dwell alone with God in the peace of His protection.
I want to stay there always, but you won’t let me and it would be ungodly for me not to give in. But one day I will have my way; I will enter the real kingdom after I’m through with yours, and I will totally dedicate myself to God because I at last can perceive the perfect love of God I couldn’t perceive here on Earth.
Until that time, I must be content with grasping at the light that is given me while I walk my path through you. There is a light at the end of that path that makes the journey worthwhile. If I have to stop and take care of you on the way, then that’s what God has ordered for me and I accept it. I will be polite to you, but my allegiance is to God, and you hardly ever speak His name.
Sometimes I must live inside myself in order to forget you and be with God. How easily, most times, I fall into this practice of the presence of God. It’s as if I’m going home when I’m on my way, and finally home when I’m there. No wonder I leave you behind whenever God allows it. I’m not hiding from you; I’m not running from any responsibility to you. I’m just doing what God has designed me for. I don’t expect you to understand, but if you could accept it as I accept it, that would be nice.
